a sad sad day..

Tomorrow we're taking my dad back to our house. He has two to three days left max. As much as I'm not ready to say goodbye, I don't think I have a choice anymore. It hurts to see my dad suffer like this. I wish I could make it all go away. I know he has a lot to tell us but he can't. I don't want to see him in pain. My family have been sleeping here with him in the hospital everyday that he was here. I finally reached Grandma and she told me he doesn't have long too. She told us all to pray for him and she is doing the same. I wish he didn't have to go. I wanted him to see me graduate, build my career, get married, and have kids. I want him to be around to see my kids and for them to know who he is. It's just so sad to even think about. My dad has worked so hard throughout his life to provide food, shelter, and money for us all to have a better life than the one he grew up having. It makes me so sad to know that he won't make it to see us live the life that he earned for each and every one of us. We will be there for him every step of the way. If he does go, I hope he goes in peace with no pain or anything. I know he will go with Buddha to a better place because he is such a good, loving person. I am trying so hard to hold it all together but it is beyond difficult...=;(