The saddest day ever..='(

Yesterday at 3:20 PM my dad passed away. We waited to take him home all morning and we didn't get to go home until 2 something. He finally made it home and he was happy. He wanted to go home the whole time we were in the hospital. That was the last thing we could do for him. Yesterday was the saddest day of my life. I love my dad so much. Seeing him suffer was unbearable and now that he's gone the pain is just aching. I know I have to be strong for my family though. I didn't cry much because I know that he's free from the sufferings and pain. My dad's primary monk came early this morning to cleanse his body. The funeral will take place on Friday and we will cremate his body on Monday. I miss my dad so much. The monk said he is still here with us and his soul will remain on Earth for 49 days. We will be chanting and praying for his soul to be freed from sins and so that Buddha will help him. We have to eat vegetarian food 49 days so that we can repay him for everything he's done for us. I'm already eating vegetarian food for him so it's not a problem to me. I wish I could see him again. I don't know how much stronger I can be..='(