Nothing but a lie.

I slowly stopped talking to him since the last time I wrote and now I don't talk to him at all. I tried to stop talking to him because I realized how pessimistic he is about everything and how we don't have much in common. Also, it's because I saw things that many of us in the group didn't see. I wasn't sure at first but I had a hunch. So, I when I steered clear from my emotions, I saw him for who he really was and that person is not anywhere near what I'm going for. We had a movie night at my house on Friday but I didn't speak to him. Not even a word because I'm completely over him. During the time that I liked him and was still talking to him, I saw that he was constantly commenting and liking B's pictures. B is L's best friend and also J's ex girlfriend. Although they are broken up they are both still in our circle and they are still sort of talking. So, I saw what he was doing but I couldn't confirm it because I don't know if that's how he talks to other people or if he was flirting. It was definitely flirting. On Saturday, I had a GNO or an attempt of one with the girls but ended up having J and T come along. Only the girls drank and I was the only one sober though I had the most drinks. Me and the guys had to take care of the girls because they were throwing up. There were only four of us girls: me, L, B, and one of their friends. After we took care of them, I drove L's car home and J rode with me to bring the car back. In the car, he ended talking to me and telling me how mad he was. It was about the guy I used to like. He said during the time B was puking someone texted her and he was afraid it was her sister so he checked for her. It turned out to be "him". Also, J read some of their texts and that guy was complimenting B about how cute he thought she was and such. J was really pissed off because way back he asked that guy if he would ever date any of his ex and he said "no" but he went behind his back to hit on his ex. So J asked me what he should do and I told him to confront the guy before anything else happens. The next day J texted me and told me he did and everything was a misunderstanding. I told L about everything and she said she also saw what that guy was doing when he started liking and commenting B's photos but didn't want to say anything. We also met up with B and had a long chat. B said she doesn't like him and she still loves J a lot. When I went to the restroom, she and L talked. Later L told me that B said after J texted the guy and found out it was a misunderstanding he texted B to tell her all about it. Then the guy texted her and asked if she was patching things up with J. She said she told him she was and then he told her he kind of liked her but now he has to draw the line. He shouldn't have passed that line to begin with because J is his friend. J has been going to him for advices and venting about how much he loves B and all of their problems. I never thought he could be that dirty to go behind a friend's back like that. I now see the real him and I'm glad I stopped liking him a bit before it all went down. So J still doesn't know about what's going on and B isn't planning to tell him. She and the guy still talk to each other but she doesn't see him as anything more than a friend. I'm not sure if that's the case for him though. I feel so dumb for telling him things about J and B because he totally took advantage of my info to try and go for B.
       Honestly, I'm so damaged to the point where I'm not surprised that this guy along with the others didn't work out for me. For some reason people always show me their true side when it's too late. Not this time though I took a step back to see what I was heading for. Good thing I found out on my own what type of a person he was before more feelings grew stronger. I'm kind of glad the jerk who broke my heart damaged me along the way. Because of him, I don't cry over guys who break my heart anymore and I don't have lingering feelings afterwards either. My guards are way up there and I sure damn well won't let anyone in again until I'm ready. Time to move on with my life. I'm never stopping for people who aren't worth my time and tears again. I won't look for someone anymore. When the time comes, I'll meet someone who is just right for me. For now, I just want to be alone and enjoy me time. I guess when my heart was broken, I gave myself a deeper wound just so I can remember how much it hurts. So that way I won't ever let it happen again. I'm done with the drama in this group. I'm only going to hang out with the main ones and everyone else can just get out of my life or I'll do myself a favor and get out of theirs. There are so many fake people in this world it's hard to tell who's real and who's fake nowadays. I'm keeping my eyes open and my guards high because I will not let anyone close enough to my heart to break me again. This whole world is nothing but a lie.