new year changes nothing..

I came back from Chicago a few days ago and I'm really sick from the cold, windy weather. There was a mix of snow, rain, and wind when I was there and it was freezing. Didn't go to work right away and found out I had an appointment on Sunday morning and came out for her. I went home after I was done working on my client because I was dizzy and had a fever. My sister texted me later after I got home and said everyone was sick and was still working so why couldn't I have just pushed it. Guess she wants me dead. I know my body and my limits so I'm not risking another $800 going to the ER again. It's terrible that you have to hear these words from your own family. If they really care about me then these words should have never came out. It's only the beginning of a new year and they are already causing me to go back into my depression mode. I'm so done with this family. They are all so selfish and thoughtless. I've helped with the salon countless of times and still get treated like a nobody. They only call me when they need help to watch the salon otherwise nothing else matters to them. I always get stuff said to me more than any of my other sisters when I'm the only one actually helping. They take me for granted and keep causing me to go into depression because no one gives a damn about how I feel or any opinions/suggestions I have. Why am I still working with them, you might ask.. Only because when my Dad was near his ending days he came out to buy that salon so that my sisters and I will have a place to work and hope we all work well together. Because my Mom is all we have left and she wants us to stay together to help her run the place. I am so sick and tired of it though. Tired of feeling like crap everytime they put me down. Tired of helping and getting shit thrown in my face. Tired of seeing this family fall apart before my eyes. I've always been family oriented and always give out to help my family unconditionally but lately I feel like I don't want part in it. I feel sick to my stomach knowing that things have been way out of place ever since my Dad passed.. My sisters act like I love skipping work and being sick. I have bills to pay too. I don't have time to be sick and skip work but if I don't go then I must really be sick or not feeling well. The only reason why we're still connected are because of the kids if not I don't think I'll be around to take all of these words that put me down. I miss my Dad and how things were before. I honestly can not do this anymore. I feel like the more this happens the more I'll push everyone away and turn into someone I don't want to be. It's a new year but it feels the same to me..