who am I?

I'm not sure where I'm going in life but I know I have to get there someday. It's been rough for me after I lost my Dad but I've been holding on as much as I could. I've decided to take a break from school and start working more. I can't go to school when I can't decide on what I want to become. I don't want to continue school aimlessly and with no motivation. I'll return to school when I feel like the time is right. For right now, I just need to figure myself out. What have I been doing? I've wasted so much time and I still haven't gotten anywhere yet. Will I ever make it there if I continue to go on without any motivations? I'm thinking about becoming a flight attendant. I love to travel. It has always been my dream to travel and see what the world has to offer. I have to make it happen somehow. I want to be on the go. I want to take my mind off of every depressing part of my life for one. I'm not sure where this will take me but at least I'm looking forward to something. I just want to be able to do something..anything. I feel so useless and I feel like such a failure. When will I ever get to where I want to be? What do I want to become is more like the question....