Holiday blues

Recently D messaged me on FB again. He's always messaging me to talk and then just ignore me. So this time I snapped out and told him he never cared about me before so why start now. I refuse to let that asshole hurt me any longer. I'm fed up with his bullshit and I'm hella tired of his insincerity. He told me he'd stop saying things to me period. I don't care anymore. Silence has been my bestfriend recently. I haven't been drinking or going out to hang with friends. It's been a rough road for me lately and I need to make money as much as I can while I'm on break from school. So many presents to buy this year and I only have one left to buy. All I need to do is wrap my presents now.
      Grandma came here for the holidays this year. She's been accupuncturing me and taking out all the toxins from my body that have been accumulating over the years. She got a rock-like toxin out of my spine and there wasn't any blood. I felt the tear on my skin while it was coming out though. It's so crazy. No wonder I have horrible back pain. I'm so glad that she's here again. I missed her so much. Although she's not my real Grandma but I treat her as if she's my blood relative. She also does palm reading and fortune telling. She knows everything about me and sometimes I feel like she's the only one that really understands me. My family always assume and judge me for what I do and how I do it but they never once care about why I do it. She never blames me or yell at me. Instead she advises and explains to me and supports me. She encourages me to go to school and to do what I feel is right. I talk to her about everything I can't talk to my family about. I ask her questions about Buddhism and life and she answers them in details. Even my Dad really respected her when he was alive. Speaking of my Dad..I really miss him. This will be the second Christmas without him and it makes me really sad to know he'll never be here for Christmas again. No more buying gifts for him. Even when he doesn't use his gifts that we buy him, he never give it away or throw it away. He keeps everything. I miss him so very much. Holidays will never be the same without him..:(