too much

I can't stand this anymore. It's been one thing after the other. I'm more than upset I'm furious. I'm so mentally and physically exhausted. I just want to breathe. Things aren't going well with my friends. I'm trying to block everything out because I'm so tired. I just want everything to be normal again and not like war for everyone. Family problems are another one of my concerns. My mom is sad because of me. Everyone is sad because of me. I'm tired of being the problem for everything. I don't know where I'm going in life and my family is worried over me. They are afraid I won't make it in the real world. They want me to grow up and be more responsible. Honestly ever since my dad passed I've been off track and all over the place. I don't know how to keep on going. When I was on the trip to NOLA, I did tarot card reading.

First, the lady tuned in and then flipped a card and told me everything happena for a reason so don't fret it. Next, she told me while tuning in she saw me wearing different shoes and walking all over the globe. I was travelling all over the world. Then she asked how old I was and I told her 23. She told me she saw 24 at that time. Then she flipped an education card indicating that I was still in school. She told me it states that I'm very artistic and extremely creative. The cards also say that my intuitions are high and so are my 6 senses. She started to describe my mom and dad. She told my dad is a very strong and well structured man and my mom is more of cups, as in she's really emotional but structured at the same time. The lady told me I had both the strong, structured side and the emotional side. Sometimes my emotions throws me off course but then again I'm a very logical and analytical person. She told me I have a big heart and I sometimes give people more than they deserve. I'm always helping people and trying too much to please everyone. She told me to stop giving to undeserving friends and family. She told me to think about myself for once. She kept repeating the big heart and gratitude part. She said I'm on the right path in life and eventually I'll get to where I want to be in life as in physically, financially, and emotionally. She told me I'll be meeting a guy in a few months and he's gonna show me a great time. She told me he's really fun and I'll have a wonderful time with him. I was told not to try at all and be myself. She said I need to stop trying and flirt around and have fun. This person will not be my husband though. I will meet my husband after this guy and she described my husband to be very well off. She told me I will be very fortunate and will have two kids. Either me or my husband's job will allow us to travel a lot. Which is good because I love travelling so much. The lady also told me that the cards say that I'm depressed and devastated. Also, that I worry and stress a lot over my mom. She told me that I'm way too young to be this stressed out and that I'm depress over something in life. She was in shock because she saw that I've been through so much since I was younger. She told me I'm a really strong person because even with all the things I went through, I never let them sink me. She told me I'm the type of person who would never step on others to get to the top. She said I will have a lot of power in the future. About my love life, she said there's a bit of depression in there too. I just need to let go to move on. My emotions are the only things in the way of my success. She's pretty much on point with everything. She read me like a book.