no hopes...

I delivered him some sweets at work about a week or so ago and we stood outside his work place talking for a bit. He talked to me a for a long time before he went in. Well to me it felt longer than those other times I delivered. Then one day he talked to his coworker and I texted him and so he mentioned me to his coworker. Turns out to be I used to go to high school with his coworker and we we're friends back then. One night they went to IHOP after work around 1AM and he asked me if I wanted to join. So I joined them and we ended up staying there til 6AM. We talked and chilled and then when we went out to our cars to go home, our cars were iced up. We totally forgot about the freezing rain warning. The next morning or shall I say later that day we had snow. Everyone was stuck inside their houses for 2 days. Valentine's day recently passed and all I did was go eat with my sister and her boyfriend since they are doing their date on a different day. After I ate with them I went over to L's. She and her boyfriend took me to deliver a cupcake for "him" at work because I felt like it was too awkward to go alone. Plus that cupcake had a small heart on top of it too. I felt like it was way too awkward to give that to him alone. Today we went over to L's house and just hung out. I didn't text him at all today. So proud of myself. Although I did get to see him and to me that felt like enough. They are having breakfast tomorrow and he asked me to join when we were leaving L's house. I told him maybe but it depends on the time the are going. Then we hugged and went home. I think the most awkward part for me and him is goodbye. Sometimes I feel like we don't want to say goodbye or when we do we look at each other to see is we should hug or just wave. It is so weird. I'm not letting my hopes up though. I don't want to get hurt again. This time I'll just let things run itself. I'm tired of being the hurt one at the end of each relationship. Or it could be that I have no more hopes to set. I'm not sure where this is going or what's going on. I'm too tired to even think about it and stress myself out. I just need a break. Whatever happens happen.