New year, new thoughts and problems..

I talked to the dude in Vietnam a couple weeks back and he was down about his ex because she was getting married. He told me that he loved her a lot. For some reason, that made me back away. I guess I don't think of him in that way anymore since he's still in love with someone else. Now that he's focused on me, I don't feel the same way back. I don't want to feel like a rebound to anyone. So I set my mind clear from him. One night I came home from hanging out with friends and my sister and her boyfriend told me someone was interested in me. I started to laugh and ask her who. She told me it was her boyfriend's sister's boyfriend's brother. Confusing huh? Let's do codes. R is my sister's boyfriend, L is his sister, T is her boyfriend, and X is his brother. She told me to go on a date with him at Cafe Intermezzo. I told her no because I had no idea who he was, his name or how he looks like. I also didn't know if she was joking or messing with me. So that following Sunday after going out to eat with my sisters and my mom, I came home and saw that my sister and R were about to go somewhere. They told me they were going to her boyfriend's house to play games and asked if I wanted to join. I went with them. In the car, I asked who was all going to be there and she told me just people in R's family. So when we got there, they saw "his" car and told me he was there too. I was nervous for a second. This was my first time going over to R and L's house and now I'm going to see people I don't know either. So when I went in I saw "him" standing in the kitchen with the others. Nobody introduced us or anything. We all got together and played games. We all got along really well and we had a great time. Then game time was over and everyone started to clean up to go home. He was standing around and he looked at me every now and then like he wanted to say something but he didn't know what. Oh I forgot to mention that he is cute! ;) So I didn't see or talk to him until he found me on FB. I didn't even know his name. I wasn't sure if he knew mine but he found me. So I added him and greeted him. We were talking like strangers for a few minutes. Then that was it. I didn't really talk to him til it was New Year's Day. I worked up some nerves to say "happy new year" to him. It was his day off and I worked only for half a day because of the holiday. We ended up talking to each other all day. Then for the next few days we talked more and more. Yesterday, I went to eat with my friends, L and T, and also X. I wasn't expecting him to be there. He usually works night shift from 6pm to 2am but he was off yesterday. We had a lot of fun at the restaurant. Then after eating we went to try out Paris Baguette, a new bakery cafe place. I rode by myself going there but when we were leaving to go back to L's house, he asked to carpool with me. He carpooled with L and T before that. I told him yea so we rode together. It's so embarrassing because my car looked like a jungle! I haven't had the time to clean it! He survived though. We talked the whole way to L's house. We spent the whole night joking and having fun. All of us but me and him seemed to connect more. I felt like something was sparking between us or is about to. Not sure though. Don't want to jinx anything. So we didn't go home until 4am! Again we had an awkward goodbye. We didn't hug but we looked at each other like we wanted to but instead we waved. haha I told him to text me when he got home and he did. We texted for a bit and headed to bed. Woke up and talked to him this morning too and now he's napping for work later. He's 3-4 years older than me. He's funny and I can't stop laughing when I talk to him. Let's see how far this will go.

On a side note..Something really bad happened to Panda, my dog/son. I took him to the vet and they said one of his plates from his spine slipped and cause his nerves to swell up. There is also inflammatory to the nerves and now he can't function his hind legs. I feel so bad for him. He's been going on himself and he's not eating much. We had two options. One is to get surgery for him but it will cost us $2k to $6k. The other is to put him on medication to induce the pain and to let it heal slowly but we won't be too sure if this will work well at all. I don't know what to do. I do not have money in the "k" unit to do surgery but seeing him suffer like this kills me. My little sister is devastated too. We are taking turns watching him because he is on strict rest mode and needs to be watched. Seeing him like this reminds me of my dad. How he wanted to do things but he couldn't because he was ill and too weak to walk. I really hope Pan gets better soon because it's breaking my heart seeing him like this. ='(