So earlier I saw a status on FB from the dude I talked to in Vietnam. He wrote that the moon in Phu Quoc is very bright and beautiful and for some reason when he looks at it he's reminded of someone. Then he put could it be that he likes that person now. I called him to talk to him because I promised I would but never did. So when I did he sounded super excited to talk to me. He told me to read his status and I told him I did then he asked me what I thought about it. I told him not to focus on the moon too much and forget about the sky full of stars. Why choose now to like me when I've decided to move on? It doesn't matter if I move on or not because we are from two different worlds. He lives in a foreign country to mine and we'll never be able to be with each other. I don't want him to wait for me and miss opportunities and chances with others. I'm not worth it. He's a wonderful guy and I know he would find the right one eventually. I can't help but to feel like a rebound to his ex who got married. Why didn't he like me then? Why now after his ex got married? I can't help but to feel that way. I don't know what to do now. I don't know what to say to him. I want everything to be cleared. I'm sorry things turned out this way but I guess we should've known from the beginning. I honestly don't want to break his heart. I have to tell him the truth soon before he falls for me. Thing is, we haven't been talking enough for him to like me like that. I value his friendship a lot though but I don't see him as anything more than a friend anymore. Plus, I'm talking to someone else now..
So me and the guy I've been talking to are still in a confused state. I don't what's going on really. I think this time I'll let my heart decide. I think I'll just go with the flow and let things turn out by itself. If it works then it works. If not, then it wasn't meant to be. I came by his work to drop off sweets for him. I know he has a sweet tooth so I bought him some cake slices. Hopefully he enjoyed it. When I got there his face was so down and he looked tired. I hope my desserts made him a little happier. I feel like he's on and off sometimes. Sometimes he's sweet and super nice. Then there are times when he's quiet and serious. I don't know what he thinks of me or if he sees me in any other way than just a friend. If he only sees me as a friend then I hope he lets me know soon because I can't afford another heartbreak right now. In fact my heart is so broken there isn't anything left to break. Why does everything have to be like this? I'm super confused and lost. I don't know what to do..=(
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