It's been a bit again since I've written here. Life has been taking me by surprise with all of the stress and the work that has piled up upon me but then it has also led me to meet great, new people. This past saturday I went to my first business event and meet new people. I heard everyone's stories of why they decided to join our company and I felt a connection to them all. I'm really glad I took the big leap and joined USANA because it has brought so much into my life. I am able to help my family and friends to become healthier and to get to where they want to be. I love helping people so much. Every time I help a person I feel a burning satisfaction in my heart. I feel like this is who I am and I want to keep going. School will be out in a month so I am so stressed out over my projects. I feel like everything is stacking up higher and higher and I haven't gotten anything done yet. I think I need a break from everything right now. I just need to steer clear and keep focus.
So about the guy from Vietnam..We don't talk anymore. :( His computer was broken and he brought it to a place to fix it and they haven't given it back yet. At first he was MIA for a week then somehow he got online and told me that his computer broke and he haven't gotten it back yet. He said he'll FB me when he gets it back..It's been weeks now and I haven't heard from him since. I kind of miss him. My godsister and I had a talk the other night about guys and she said something about couples never running out of things to talk about. I was reminded right away that me and this guy always end up not knowing what to say to each other at one point in our conversation. I guess that's not so healthy. But we're not a couple so I don't know if it actually counts like that. I'm not in love with him and he's probably moved on by now. For some reason though whenever I see the moon shine in the night sky, I think of him and smile. There's a full moon tonight. I thought about him when I saw it but I didn't smile. I felt something else instead. I felt empty. There's an emptiness inside of me and I feel like I'm always going to be alone. I feel like there's no one out there for me or at least not yet. My mom and everyone have been rushing me to find a partner because they don't want me to be alone but it's much much easier said than done. I can't just randomly date someone. I have to get to know them and see if we're compatible first. The problem here is finding someone that I would like to talk to. I'm such a picky person and I think a part of me is too scared to get hurt again. I don't know what it is but I hope I stop feeling like this and eventually find someone who is right for me and who finds me to be right for them.
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