stress overload..

I have been super stressed out. For the past few weeks I have been going to school, going to work, training for my new opportunity or helping out with my godsister's birthday bash. Now I'm sick and I'm super exhausted. I need a break but if I stop I don't know if I'll get back up like before. Sometimes even when I don't want to keep going I find a reason though. That reason is what keeps me sane up til today or I would've been crazy by now. I've been missing my Dad a lot lately. I've been crying and stressing. On top of that I can't sleep at night. Maybe that's why I became sick. I'm not sure how much more I can handle. One can only take in so much. I still have to pay people back and pay for bills. I feel like I'm in debt. I'm not really feeling school lately. I just want to leave somewhere far to take in some fresh air..I guess I've been holding everything in for too long and now it's crumbling down on me. I told my mentor about my family today and everytime I mentioned my Dad and about his death or his funeral, I fought so hard to hold the tears back. I wanted to break down and I've never broken down on anyone before. I think it's because I have too much on my plate right now and I just really really miss my Dad. I need to think a lot of things through. I need to pull my life together because right now I feel like the pieces are shattering all over the place.