the pain continues....

He told me how depress he feels. He wants to marry her but she's not here and his family opposes it. They don't like her and she has a kid already. She doesn't love him though. At least not yet..It hurts me so much more than him to hear and feel what he feels. He told me everything hurts and he's willing to give up his family for her. It's not worth it if she doesn't love him back. I don't want him to feel even worse when it all crumbles into pieces. I don't think marriage is the best option. He needs her to love him first not force her to love him after the marriage takes place. Everything is so fuzzy and blurry to him. It's the blind effects of love. There's not much for me to say to help him get through this. Every pain he feels I feel it harder, deeper, and more intense than ever. The pain's so sharp,  I cried. He heard me and told me he didn't mean to drag me in this or make me cry over him but it's my choice. I want to be there for him when he's at his weakest. He doesn't understand my love for him but that's ok because I'm willing to stay and help him regardless. I'm afraid that if he finds out I'm in love with him, he'll push me away again. I feel so useless not being able to help him. I don't wish for them to fall apart because I know I can't be selfish. I just want him to be happy. I just want him to be like before. He's far from that right now and I can't help him get back on track. How does he know she won't move on and talk to another soon? I can't bear to see him hurt even more for her. I can feel pinches and throbbings in my heart. How can I help him when I'm in even more pain than he is? I wish I could take every pain he feels away. I can't stand to see him cry. It's all so much for my heart to handle. It feels like a heart attack...='(