bad start but a great ending...

I have been so occupied from school and work that I barely have time for myself anymore. I need a break and a really, really long one. I want to travel and explore but with my dad's health being so unstable, I don't want to push my limits. I don't seem to know who I am anymore. I've gained weight and I've been so zoned out of my old life style that I don't recognize the real me anymore. I've been missing him more than anything. Sometimes I wonder is it him I miss or the memories we shared. He's not quite who he appeared to be when we first met. Somewhere along the line we both lost ourselves. I started to go back to the gym today and it felt great. I feel great. I love exercising. I miss my daily routines. I'm going to get really motivated and start on it again. I want to lose weight and get back to the me I've always been. Not this busy body, depress, and tired girl. What really topped off today is that I chatted with him online. I worked up some courage and chatted with him and he replied. I miss that and I definitely miss him. We used to talk so much and now he's exited my life with complete silence. When will he come back? I feel like so much time has passed by so much from the time we first met until now. I wished he'd come back. They say if two people are really meant for each other then they always find a way back together no matter what happens. Damn..I miss him so much..