Tearful night..

So he went back to Vietnam yesterday morning. He didn't even text me or call me to say goodbye. I know that by now it shouldn't hurt as much but it does. In fact, it hurts unbearably. I don't know when he'll be back exactly but he did post on Facebook that he'll be back in a few weeks. What happens if he falls for someone else over there? He did before so he probably would again. Who am I to stop that from happening? I'm just another person to him. I don't understand why my tears keep flowing. I have no intentions to cry. I feel so sad inside though. I guess I've been avoiding and running away from my problems for too long so now they're back to get me. I miss him even though I know that he doesn't think of me anymore. It's crazy how he still crosses my mind every single day. I feel so depressed. I know I can't let anyone know that I still haven't moved on and that I still want to be the one person who will stand by him through thick and thin. My only problem is that he doesn't see me as that person....='(