missing him more than ever

I miss him a lot right now and I'm not even sure why. It's been a few days since we talked last and I still can't get that out of my mind. Why does he keep coming back to me if there's nothing between us? I don't know if he noticed but I can't turn back anymore. I love him. I know it seems foolish but love is love. It happens when it happens and I don't have the ability to stop it. I know he doesn't feel the same and I'm not asking him to but damn I just miss him so much. Everytime he comes around I feel like I'm dreaming and everything is made up in my mind but it's not. When he leaves again, it feels like I'm entering my own torture land. I wish things never turned out like this. I couldn't evade it though. I want us to be able to talk and laugh like before. I want him to text and call me like how he used to. Why does everything have to go down this road? Maybe if I go to sleep now, the next morning I wake up things will return to normal..HA! Who am I kidding?! I remember when he used to call me at 4 in the morning just to talk. What happened to that? I really want to talk to him. Please..I'd do anything to turn things around for us..