Christmas

I know I haven't been on for a bit but I've pretty busy with work and such. Yesterday was Christmas and I had a splendid time with friends and family. I got a bunch of gifts and the cool thing is every one of them are blue of some sort. Got everything I wanted this year but one thing: him. It's ok though because I have enough people and things in my life to make up for it though. I'm really glad my dad had fun and everyone was safe and healthy. Couldn't have asked for a better Christmas! I miss him a lot though. I wish he would stop treating me this way but then again I'm the one who allowed him to and I just can't help it. I have to find a way to move on but every now and then he still crosses my mind as if it were yesterday when we were together. It hurts really bad but I'm staying my strongest because I have to. Now's not the time for me to break down..