Still here waiting..

I still miss him like how I did the first time we met. I remember when he used to ask me, "How can you miss me if I never left?" I always answer back and tell him that someone doesn't have to be absent for them to be missed. My heart misses him not my eyes so why does it matter if he's there or not. I miss those days when we used to talk all the time and continuously text each other. It's been three months plus and I still feel the same for him as I first did in the beginning. It's just sad how he doesn't feel the same for me and how much things have changed in such a short period of time. It's been tough facing this truth, this reality, but I have to get through it somehow. There's not a second where I don't think about him. Ever since we've distant, I've been thinking of him even more. This isn't how it's suppose to be. This isn't what I expected in the beginning. Where has the time gone? I feel like this whole time I've been stuck in a time warp and I just can't find my way out of it. On the other hand, he's already moved on from everything that happened to us. He doesn't call or text me anymore. I'm just back to being another person to him. Life is so strange. Why did we have to meet if we'll just walk different paths later on? Eventually, we'll be strangers again. We'll see each other and act as if the past was a dream and nothing is important enough to remember. I know I won't forget anything that happened between us because I can't deny the fact that it did. He might find it as a dream he woke up from but to me it's a nightmare I'm still living in. I can't let go of the memories, him or anything that went on between us. Why deny and hide your feeling from someone who has always been there for you? I understand now that this is how we differed. He's too afraid to face his feelings for me and I'm too afraid to let go of my feelings for him. I know it's a foolish thing to do but everytime 11:11 hits, I make a wish. Every night when I look up at the sky and there are stars twinkling all over the place, I make a wish. Sometimes it doesn't matter where two people end up in life, even if it's two different paths, they should always be happy and thankful that they have once walked the same path together. I guess besides waiting for his return, the least I can do is wish for him to be happy where ever he is and with whoever he's with.  I'll always miss him. He's always going to have a place in my heart. I know it's weird that I'm willing to give out and up so much for someone who probably doesn't think of me anymore, but I guess that's love. Love is voluntarily giving someone your everything and not expecting to get anything back. Love is seeing someone happy and feeling happy for them even if their happiness doesn't involve you. So from afar, I'll be here waiting for him and watching him enjoy his life the way he should always enjoy it.