Neglect..

I've been neglecting my feelings and emotions. I tried to occupy myself with as many things as possible so I don't or won't think of him. Nothing would work though because at the end of the day, I'm still here reminiscing. I bet I'm not even a thought in his mind anymore. I hate myself for not being able to let go and I hate myself for not wanting to let go. This is a cruel world and people will come and go as they please. Why don't I get the picture? I haven't been on here in a couple of days because I always end up spilling my heart of this guy who doesn't even seem to care about my existence anymore. It's sad because I'm not even sure if he ever did care before. When will guys give me a break and stop breaking my heart? Maybe I should just give up on love for good. All I know is I can't neglect my pain for long. It'll come and get me sooner or later. I miss him so much. I honestly wish things weren't like this. I thought we were heading somewhere but now it's completely disconnected and he's gone for good..='(