Late night thoughts..

I just got home from watching Breaking Dawn Pt. 2 half an hour ago with my second family. I realized I haven't been out much lately and that I haven't seen a movie for over 3 months already. The last movie I saw was Ice Age 3 in NY with him. I missed that night and I miss him very much. I remember that night my other friend was supposed to go to the movies with us too but he bailed so we could be alone. So me and him ended up going to the movies to watch Ice Age 3. He was the one that wanted to watch it actually. We made out during the previews that night because it was going on and on. It was so cold in that theater that night. The whole time I was trying to keep him warm so he wouldn't be sick. It was really funny because we started to lift all the arms on the seats up to lay down. I told him to lay in my arms and I'll keep him warm because I wasn't cold at all. He started to crack up and told me that I was pulling guy moves because I was wrapping my arms around him. It was a really cute, vivid night. I still remember it like it was yesterday. I remember after the movies, we went to Dave and Buster's. he got me a little stuffed tiger. I still have right here with me. A day before we left to go back to Atlanta from NYC, he went to D&B and won me a big stuffed dog. Sad thing was I didn't bring it back to Atlanta with me because it was way too big and I had nowhere to put it and no way to hold it on the plane. I regret that I didn't bring it back with me but then again, it would've been filled with tears by now if I did. I miss all the beautiful and unforgettable memories we shared. It hurts a lot to finally realize that's he moved on without me. I really don't think he cares about me or think about me anymore. I feel so hurt when I think about how he could just push every feeling he's ever had for me away and erase every memory we ever made. Sometimes, I wish my life could be like in the movies. It always starts out bad but the ending is always a fairytale. True love never dies and it lives on forever. I loved how the ending of the movie I watched earlier ended with "forever". Bella and Edward deserved every bit of that happy ever after because they fought their way through every single obstacle. I envy the relationship and communication they had towards each other. Their love is a love any couple would wish to have but since this is a reality we live in, that type of love is rare. Again comes the unwanted tears. I'm not sure if all this pain is making me stronger or tearing me apart. It's sad how memories could last forever unchanged but the people who creates them are alway subjective to change. What a cruel, cruel world this is..='(