Hopeless romance...

He has been replying to my texts lately. He's in town because his sister-in-law is in the hospital, his nephew is sick, and his sister is sick. So he told me he had to take his mom to Atlanta to help out. I'm happy to even get to hear from him so I don't want to be mad about him not replying sometimes. I wonder though. Does he think of me? Does he see my texts and calls or does he just ignore them because he doesn't feel for me? I feel like a hopeless romantic. I feel like I will never have a chance to be with him or have him as mine. He doesn't want me. He doesn't love me. What kills me is that I'm just another person to him when he isn't just another guy to me. I feel so lost. I miss him like crazy. I've been really down lately. To know that he's hear but I can't see or talk to him. I wish I could drop by to see him and check on his family to see if everyone's ok but I can't. I'm not his girlfriend. He doesn't want me around anyways. I wish things could be different and turn out right for us. I have this gut feeling that we will be together one day. I still feel for him the way I did when we first met. When he texts me I still get the butterflies. Sometimes when it's quiet I think of the past from when we first met to all of the scenes of just us two together. It makes me cry everytime to know that something beautiful has ended so tragically. Hearing and feeling you heart break is like feeling the butterflies have all died in your stomach when they were happy and fluttery before. I need a break from all this torture now. Sometimes I wonder how much endurance can I tolerate because this is so much to take in all at once...='(