Endless thoughts..

Tomorrow I have a test but I honestly don't feel like studying right now. I know I have to though so I will but for now, I need to brush off what's on my mind. So I called him yesterday and he didn't reply. I've been leaving him alone for a bit because he haven't been replying. Today he called me and I missed his call. I held my phone in my lap and all of a sudden it dialed his number and when I saw the screen turn green I hung up. Then I saw his missed call on my call log so I called him back. He actually picked up. I asked him did he call me and he said yes and started to talk to me. He said he was sorry for not talking to me lately..=) Then I told him it was okay and he asked me if it really was okay. I told him I'm not sure. Then he told me I could yell at him if I want to and I asked him does he want me to yell at him. He said he didn't know or care as long as it made me feel better. I told him I could yell at him but I won't. I rather talk to him instead than to waste time that I get to talk to him. I know it seems like I keep falling for the same trap but I honestly can't help it. When I see his calls, texts or hear his voice everything within me lights up with joy. I miss him more than anything and to be able to hear his voice again makes me melt. I truly do think I'm in love with him and I can't explain how or why. Love isn't measurable and it has no limits. Only thing is, he doesn't love me. I wonder if he's just being nice or does he actually care? Sometimes it truly does become difficult to tell. Okay enough venting for today. Back to studying for my last exam for this course.