Confused..

So yesterday morning I received a text message from him. It was so random and sudden, I burst in tears when I found out it was a text from him. I thought maybe things will slowly die off with time since he's completely not communicating with me. He only texted me basic conversation texts like "hey" and "what's going on" but it was enough to get me thinking. I'm so confused. How can he just keep disappearing and reappearing in my life every now and then? Doesn't he know it hurts me everytime? I love him though. Maybe that's the reason why I keep falling for him over and over again even when it seems like I'm walking in a trap. I always wondered if he thought about me and now I know. It's such a great feeling to know that he still cares. I am happy to even hear from him than to have him neglect me forever. I really hope things work out for us because I don't understand why he keeps pushing me away when his feelings for me obviously haven't been lost. I miss him so much. I honestly do wish things will work out the way it should have between us. We've done too many things and have created way too many memories to erase. The thing is I don't want to erase any memories of him. I don't want to erase him. I'm so confused on what to feel like. I want him to want me back. I want him to truly speak his mind for once and to pick up the phone and call me. I want him to tell me why he doesn't want me and why he doesn't think it'll work. I want him. I hate it when tears keep streaming down endlessly. I can't stop it and after a bit, I don't want to...='(