The end has come..

So I've been really out of it lately. I feel like everything is falling out of place, piece by piece. I deactivated my facebook for two days now because I know I'll keep looking to see if he's been on. I feel like I'm an annoying person of some sort. He hasn't text me back or call me in over a week. I'm just so depressed. I don't know what to feel or what to say because right now everything is intensified. I feel five times the pain everyday. I've been crying my eyes out every night. I've been extremely tired but what's the worst part is that I have insomnia too. Insomnia while being heartbroken and stressed out is like getting trap in a nightmare you can't wake up from.. I really wish he knows what he's doing to me and I wish he'd stop doing it. I wish he'd call me or at least text me back. I hate how the beginning of something new is so beautiful and happy but you just never know what to expect next. Just like for us. It went from happy to this..I just want to cry it all out and move on but it's so different with him than others. I can't move on. I don't know how. I feel overly attached to him and I don't even know why..Is like what the horoscope thing was talking about? Are we a matching pair? I just want to go away. I just want to cry my eyes out and forget myself and everything about him..