Letting go is hard..

I can't take him off my mind or let go of this pain in my heart. I miss him so much. How can he enter my life with such noise and exit with discrete silence? It's so hard to let go of something you actually care for. I know to him I'm not important and to him I'm just another girl. To me, he's not just another guy though. He's the only person I know with this many similarities with me. I thought for a moment I found my soul mate but I guess I was fooled. My heart is in so much pain right now. I;m so heartbroken over a guy who doesn't even love me or seem to even care about me. I don't know how many more tears I'm going let fall from my eyes but right now there's no stopping it. What did I do for him to treat me this way? They say never fall in love young because it'll just bring heart aches and problems. I'm 21 and this still applies to me. Each day without him gets worse but he'll never know. He's broken me in ways I could never imagine. I feel so hopeless and helpless. It's so painful when I close my eyes because flashback starting from day 1 of us together runs through my head like a movie. It's sad when it's so passionate and intimate at first and now all I feel is blue and grey. Everything has slipped out of our grasp. It's like you never know what to expect anymore. I thought things were going great with us but now I know I was always in this alone. I won't forget or regret a moment with but I will remember with all my heart of what was once there...