Insomniac with a broken heart..

I can't sleep. I finally went to Walgreen's earlier to get a EPT. Good news..I was tested negative. Bad news, I went to the park where we first met and went to the swings where we first sat and cried my eyes out. The wind was blowing really hard earlier and the moon is rounder than anything. A full moon with gusty wind night and I'm all alone. I cried thinking about us and how things were when we first met. I cried at how things are now that we've changed so much within three months. I couldn't stop crying and now I can't sleep. I had two wine coolers and I'm just so depress. I feel like crying again and there's not much I can do to take this feeling out of my head. I miss him. It didn't have to be like this. This is what he wants and I can't change anything...