Impossible..

Everyday is getting more and more impossible for me. It's been so hard to sleep, eat or even think right. I feel tired of everything but there's not a thing I can do about it. I miss him more than anything right about now. I wish that for the past few weeks I've only been dreaming and none of this pain or hurt is part of reality. I wish that he'd call me to tell me he's sorry and that none of this ever happened. I wish he'd just call me and stop stabbing me in the heart. I can almost hear the sound of my heart shatter. I can almost see the blood dripping from my heart. Everything feels so dreamlike yet it's all reality and I'm trying to convince myself to forget it. I wish he was here by my side to stop all this hurt. I feel like I'm in a world full of possibilities and he's my only impossible thing to reach for. Sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me. I wonder if you know how much you hurt me. I wonder if you know how much I've fallen for you. I wonder if you even cared. I feel like no matter how hard I try, things will only be more impossible. How do I stop crying when I know you don't care about me even through all the memories we've shared? All I can do is cry and even when I stop, I'll just end up crying again a second later..=(