Goodbye..

One of the hardest things to do in life is to say goodbye. Saying goodbye to people you love and care for is the worst. I've been trying to call and text him since Tuesday but there hasn't been any replies. So today I worked up some nerves and spoke my mind. He's hurt me more than he could possibly imagine.  So I texted him saying that he should've just told me that he didn't want to talk or text me anymore instead of making me feel like I'm getting neglected or feel like I'm bothering him. I don't know if he's too busy or he just lost feelings for me but I can feel the cold vibe and I'm just going to stop bothering him. I told him I don't know how he does it but it's so hard for me to push my feelings for him away. Then I said goodbye to him. I honestly don't want to feel this way. I hate it with everything I've got to hate. If he didn't want any sparks then he shouldn't have talk to me or kiss me or anything. Everything he's done has lead me on push me to the edge and now that I'm head over heels, he's neglecting me. I don't understand how someone can do that to another person when they know it's wrong. What have I done to hurt him? Why does he have to hurt me? So many questions that I'll never get the answers to. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to make all the wrongs right but there's no point in that if he doesn't even want to try. Oh yea, that's right! He doesn't want to try... I'm miserable and I feel every aching pain to the heart. I know he feels it too. He has something for me or at least did have something for me..What happened? What went wrong? I don't get the point of letting to people meet, like/love, then separate them. That's just so cruel and painful. I rather not start at all than to start and be hurt. I wish it's all a nightmare. I know it's not though. I'm burying myself in dreams when reality is right in front of me smacking me in the face with the truth. He's over me..When will it be my turn to get over him? Getting to know/meet someone is always easier than letting go/saying bye to them. It hurts too much. I'm at the point where I'm helpless, hopeless, and speechless. Nothing left to do or say. Tears are my only resolutions..='(