Today is the fifth day I haven't heard from him..:( I feel really sad. I've been singing the blues every night. How could someone just disappear out of your life so fast? I don't understand what I've done wrong for this to happen to me. Why give me the chance to know him and to fall in love with him and then take him out of my life? My friend told me that the more days he's gone the faster it'll be for me to move on but I don't feel that way. I feel like it's getting worse for me everyday that I don't hear for him. I've been crying a lot lately. I've been thinking about when we first started talking, the first time we met, New York's trip, and all the other times we've been together. If he could just let me know what is on his mind everything would be much better. Right now I feel so neglected by him and I don't even know why. Did he lose his phone again or something? If he did, the least he could do is facebook me about it. It hurts. It hurts to care and feel so much for someone who doesn't feel the same for you or care for you the same way. I knew this pain was coming but there's no escaping it. I can't let him go and I can't stop thinking about him or about us.
In my heart, I truly believe he's not the type of person to just leave another hanging. I want to know what's really going on. I want to know so badly but I don't now how else to reach him. I just want to hear his voice and see him right now. I miss him so much. I know he doesn't want a relationship but I truly hope I can change his mind one day. I want to open up my heart to him and I hope one day he can open up his to me. I can't stop crying. I feel so sad. I just want to cry it all out. Cry myself to sleep so that I can dream of him. My dream is the only place I can reach him at right now..
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