Neglection is so painful..

I couldn't help it and texted him yesterday asking him why he did all these things with me and got me to feel something for him and then just block me out completely..It hurts really bad because I feel so strong for him and was beginning to fall in love. I put in so much and now its over. I feel like I played with fire and just got a first degree burn. There's no other comparison I can think of but that. I tried to resist from texting him again last night but couldn't help myself. I texted him and called him twice. I wanted to know. I know it seems so desperate for me to make an approach like that but I feel so in depth with pain. I want him to answer me instead of neglecting me. If he has no feelings for me then why neglect me? Why would he be scared to hurt my feelings? I'm miserable right now. Super miserable. I don't feel like eating or doing anything. I don't want to go home because I'll just mop around and cry. I don't now what to do. Why did he make me become like this? Actually HOW? He's not even my boyfriend and I'm feeling like this already. Why does he have to push me away if he likes me? Why push away his own feelings? What happened? I know he still likes me so why neglect me to the point where I'm becoming soulless. I feel like a person without a heart or with a broken heart. I have no intention to laugh or play. I just want to cry. Everything I do or say or anything reminds me of him. How can he just cut me off like that? I thought I found my soul mate..but I guess not. We were so alike in so many different ways. Wasn't that why he wanted to talk to me instead of ten billion of other girls? That's what he said. I'm hurt..physically, emotionally, and mentally. It burns down to every part of me and all because of him. When will I ever heal? Will I ever heal? I don't want to move on or forget him. I just things to go back to normal. Maybe this is just a dream..a nightmare actually. I just want him to reply back and say that he still cares...='(