I waited for his text reply but he didn't reply back to me until the 25th. I asked him why was he neglecting me and he replied saying that it's nothing on me and that he's just too busy, sorry. That was the last I heard from him. The other day, the 28th I think, I texted him and said, "I don't know why I still text you when you're obviously too busy to reply and I don't know why I feel so much for you when you don't even care." I also threw in that maybe he's right, I am silly. I haven't heard from him in days or has it been a week or so? I've been trying to keep myself occupied with positive people and going out late until I got tired every night. I don't know what else to do or say to him. I don't want to seem desperate or sympathetic. I want him to care for me like how I care for him. I know he doesn't love me but if he likes me as much as he said he did, then why hurt me so much? I feel lost. I'm lost in thoughts and everything else. I don't think I can handle all of this. I know he's not that busy because he obviously gets on Facebook everyday.
           I should've known this day would come. There's always that one person you put so much care and feelings toward that will rip your heart open like it's a meaningless thing. I shouldn't have let him get to me but it's too late for that now. I'm in this deeper than I thought. I can put up a show for the world to see how happy and unstressed I am but deep down I can't lie to myself. I know I'm not one bit happy and I feel like I'm all over the place. I've become the mess I never wanted to clean. What am I to do now? How am I suppose to feel? I've been crying nights after nights but who is really there to wipe my eyes or lend me their shoulders? How could he be like this towards me? Why talk to me and get me to feel so much and just drop me? Am I just a toy or someone to play around with? I don't get it. I really don't. The fact that it gets worse everyday is tearing me up inside. I wish it's just a nightmare.
           The only problem is if it's a nightmare I can always wake up from it and things will be normal but it's reality. Reality is something you can never wake up from because the truth lies right in front of you. I feel so heartbroken and simply hurt. When will I heal? Will I ever? This is awful but I can't hold the tears from falling...='(