I don't know..

I haven't talked to him in 4 days. The last text I had from him was when he texted me that he was faded. I don't know how I'm suppose to feel. I don't know why things are going down hill again. Did he lose his phone or what happened? Before, when he actually cared, he'd tell me on scramble at least but now it's like he disappeared. Why hurt me to this point? I can't understand why I have such a strong attraction towards this guy. He continues to hurt my feelings. I am stressed out about school, work, family, and yet again love. I don't know how much I can handle but I'm at the point where I want to give up on every aspect of life. When will people learn to give me a break? I've been crying every now and then. I knew this was coming. Still, I wasn't prepared. Each time this happens..it gets worse. The pain is intensifies to the max and I'm here speechless, helpless, and hopeless. When will my happy ending come along? For now it feels like never. I want to cry but I have so much work today for school I have to stay focus. I wish he'd make up his mind and stop playing with mine...=(