So I can't sleep and I guess I need to vent my feelings. I really feel like me and him haven't been talking or texting a lot. Well at least on his part. Maybe I'm just thinking way too much because he is a little sick plus he's a busy person. I don't know. My minds is filled with curiosity and I can't put it to rest. Good thing is he still texts me when he can. I just don't like how we're drifting into an anti-communication mode. I just want to hear his voice and receive texts from him everyday. I want to know how he's doing and if he's feeling better. He spends a lot of time at his friend/coworkers place though. UGH! What's wrong with me?! I'm acting like we're boyfriend and girlfriend or something. THIS HAS TO STOP NOW! We're just more than friends but not in a relationship! =( I'm not so sure how to deal with my feelings. I'm not so sure if he wants to even feel anything at all. All I know is I miss him so much. I just want to know if he's feeling any better since he's sick.
For some reason sometimes my tears fall and I have no idea why. I'm not really that sad over anything but it seems like I want to cry for some reason. Oh yea almost forgot. Yesterday was the first day of school and it went pretty well. Looking forward to go to my two classes later today if I'd get some sleep first! I just have too many trains of thoughts and it's not planning to shut down anytime soon. I feel like I'm sprung over him. It's like when I don't hear his voice or see him text me back I get funny feelings and my heart squirms. I feel like I'm ignored or rejected. Maybe I'm just beat for today and I need to rest. I need to gain some energy and confidence. I'm off to bed or I'll never wake up on time for school. Hopefully I can see or hear him at least in my dreams if not in reality. It's all I need to keep me going. ;)
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