No matter how hard things get and you feel like everything's falling apart, just remember one thing..life goes on. Lately I've been feeling suffocated with my recent break-up, my dad's health condition, and my family period. I hate getting into arguments with my family and definitely hate hearing them argue among each other. That's how it's been like at home. Endless arguments and mad rage. I'm tired of all of it. I already have to deal with getting over my ex and now I have to go through all of this. I need to get away, for a week at most. I need to breathe and just be away from family and all the melancholic feeling I've been feeling lately. I'm planning to go to NYC with a few people in August. I want to leave ATL for once just to get a break. There are so many places to go and so much to do in NYC. I know I will be occupy when I'm up there and will take my mind off everything. There are so many places I want to go in NY like Times Square, Chinatown, the MoMA, Metropolitan Museum, Empire State Building, NY Aquarium, and so much more.
I've always wanted to go to a good art school to pursue my career and now I have the opportunity of going to NY and checking all the art and design institutes out. I'm already excited about this trip when I haven't even book my ticket or a hotel to stay at. I'm desperate for a getaway before school starts though. I don't know how much more I can hold up if I continue to hurt over everything. My dad has lost so much weight since March and it's extremely devastating to see him like this. I don't know how much longer he has but I really hope they'd hurry up with a new treatment to cure stage 4 lung cancer. My dad is a good person. He's been a hard-working man all his life and he doesn't deserve to feel or be like this during his last few years. He has done nothing but help everyone out with their issues and try his best to make as much money to support his wife and kids. He's the best dad anyone could ever have. He has done everything to fulfill his role as a father and I appreciate his care and effort so much. During the past few months, I've learned that you should never take people you love and care for granted and should never hurt them when they're alive because one day when they are gone, you will regret and will be deeply sorry but will never have a chance to apologize. I don't want that to be me. I understand everything my dad has done for me and regret hurting him in the past in any way. I just hope he gets better. I want a peaceful and happy family. I want everyone to be happy and satisfied with their lives and be stress-free. However, problems and arguments aren't always avoidable. Sometimes the problems get bigger and harder to deal with but I only have one choice and it's facing in because life goes on. As life goes on, people move on along with it.
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